Something I must share of how God has a plan for our lives and he can
see years into the future of what we will have the opportunity to
accomplish for His Kingdom.
Almost 20 years ago when I was 16
years old I was going through a very hard time in my life. My parents
were divorced my mom was trying to raise my sister and I. I had gone
through a horrible 2 month relationship with my first boyfriend. I was
facing a lot for my 16 year old brain to handle, I was a Christian was
active in church and playing drums for a church but life just felt like
it was closing in on me. One night i felt i could not go on, and so in
the middle of the night i stepped out through the window of my bedroom
and onto the roof of our house. I stood on the edge of the roof and
looked down thinking about committing suicide. I was about to jump when
i heard a loud audible voice from within my spirit yell STOP!!!! I came
back to myself a little more and realized what i was about to do and
knew i would send my soul to hell if i would jump and kill myself. So I
stepped back in through the window and went back to bed never telling
anyone what i had done.
For weeks after this event i began
praying for God to let me die, I just wanted to go home to heaven I
wanted to be without all this turmoil and pain my mind was going
through. Then one night God came to me......
I went to bed on a school
night and went to sleep. The next thing I knew I was floating above my
bed, I was floating into the clouds and out of the atmosphere. And
suddenly I was standing a huge gate and there was bright white light all
around. The Gate opened and I stepped just inside. I knew immediately
i was in heaven, and I thought I was dead and God had heard my cry to
be able to come home.
As I stood just inside the gate I look over
and I see my Great Grandma Naomi James (MawMaw) who had died when I was
10 years old. I said "Mawmaw!?" and she "Yes Miranda, Hi" and then
after she walked past I saw an young man in his teens with blonde hair
He looked at me and said "Hi Miranda" I looked at this young man who was
about my age and said "Craig?!" He looks at me and says "Yeah!" this
young man was my uncle Craig who died when he was 15 years old who I
only knew from his school picture that my Grandmother has sitting on a
table in her house. Craig walked on by and suddenly I was surrounded by a
multitude of people many who's faces i recognized but could not
remember their names.
Suddenly, the crowd began to part and I
saw a tall man in a white robe walking towards me, his face shown like
the sun and I immediately knew it was Jesus. Jesus came to me and said
"my child why are you praying this prayer?" And immediately I knew what
he meant, the prayer I had been praying for weeks that he would take me
home to heaven. "I looked at Jesus and said "I just want to come home,
it's too much to handle" Jesus looks at me and says, "But Miranda it's
not your time to come home, you have so much to still do so much life
that must still be lived. There are people on earth that need to hear
the gospel and need help, and there are people there that only YOU can
help and you must be there to help them."
I stood there kinda
in shock and Jesus wrapped his arms around me and hugged me and it was
like I found strength like i had never known come into my spirit. And I
looked up at Jesus and said, "Ok I will go back" and immediately a force
pulled me out of the gate of heaven and i felt myself falling and then
suddenly i felt my soul return to my body and I woke up gasping for air
like I had been under water for a long time holding my breath.
I
never prayed that prayer again and I lived my life as "every day i am
alive is because there is someone i still haven't met yet and shared my
testimony and about Jesus"
Yesterday I had another God moment
that confirmed that dream. Nearly 20 years later and now being 34 years
old I had a person tell me "Miranda you are the only person i know who
could help me, you were the only person i felt i could talk to you
because i knew you had gone through this same certain situation and you
survived it."
And I immediately thought of the words Jesus
spoke to me when i was 16 years old "It's not your time, there are
people on earth that only you can help and you need to be there for
them"
After this person talked to me about what they were going
through and how they felt God had placed me in their life so many years
ago because He knew what the future held and knew that one day they
would need a friend who could help them through. I told this person
about my vision of Heaven when i was 16 years old and I told this person
"DON'T YOU GIVE UP, BECAUSE I'M NOT GIVING UP ON YOU!!! Don't you ever
forget about what Jesus told me all those years ago, because He revealed
himself to me and told me what he did is the reason I didn't commit
suicide. YOU ARE THE REASON I DID NOT END MY LIFE. Because I believed
what Jesus said and believed He had a purpose for my life and you
telling me this confirms that there are truly people on this earth that
only I can help and I must be here to share the love of Jesus and help
show them the way until it is my time to come home to heaven.
God knows the plans he has for us
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to
prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
God sees the full length of the road I am traveling on in my life and
though I may be sick, I may not be able to do as much ministry work out
in the public as I use to. But I am still here to do His will and to
help those he sends my way. We may not understand why we go through so
much suffering on this earth but I know NOW that my suffering has been
for the Glory of God and to bring hope to those who are or have gone
through the same things i have. Because God brought me through He will
bring You through too.
When people ask me is Jesus real and is
heaven real I can for certain tell them "Yes" and when they ask "how do
you know" I can answer "because I have seen Jesus and I have seen a
glimpse of heaven" and I know HE is real.
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