Yesterday for the first time in 5 years I had to go to Urgent Care because my body decided to catch an upper respiratory infection. In just 8 hours I went from no infection in my chest to coughing my head off tasting infection and coughing nasty stuff up. Thankfully my dad came and got me right a way yesterday morning and had me at the urgent care when they opened. With my immune system being compromised due to the Crohn's Disease an infection can turn bad very quickly for me.
Luckily since I went to the doctor right a way the nurse said I was not as bad as some patients they have been seeing with this, and that it was going around VERY bad. I did not have a fever, but due to my pain level being high, my blood pressure was high and I was also having chest pains and with my medical history the doctor ran an EKG just as a precaution, and the results came back normal thankfully. But he did order me some antibiotics and a cough suppressant. This is the first time I've been on antibiotics since getting C-diff back in 2011 and so I'm doing everything I can to make sure I don't get C-diff again, so I'm drinking buttermilk and making sure I'm getting probiotics in my system.
This infection could not have come at a worse time, because on Friday I have to see the Rheumatologist to possibly be diagnosed with Fibromyalsia and I REALLY hope that i can have this infection over with by then. I'm getting very little sleep waking up once every hour to cough stuff up out of my chest or I'm waking up with horrible night sweats that leave me cold and clammy.
Spending a lot of time drinking hot green tea with lemon and honey, and watching Netflix to pass the time especially right now being 4:45 a.m. and I can't sleep because I'm coughing too much again. Hopefully the cough suppressant will kick in soon. But no matter what it's going to be a good day and I will get what house work I need to get done today, which is very little thankfully and rest and pray this infection passes quickly so I can get some rest.
Tuesday, September 29, 2015
Tuesday, September 22, 2015
Happy 8th Wedding Anniversary Jeremy
Today 8 years ago I married the love of my life Jeremy Caverley. To be honest I did not know if I would be celebrating 8 years of marriage with Jeremy due to the fact that last year on this day we were separated and I was living with my Grandparents crying myself to sleep this night 1 year ago praying God help me to know what to do to save my marriage.
God worked a miracle, Jeremy and I have been back together for 6 months and we are doing very well. The biggest hurdle we fight to get over everyday is the Crohn's Disease and now Fibromyalgia. 85% of marriages that go through an Incurable disease/Chronic illness do not make it. The disease destroys the marriage, but I refuse to allow this disease anymore power over my life and especially my marriage. I will fight to the death for my marriage because it is worth fighting for. Jeremy and I have such an amazing love for each other we have survived so much to be together.
The first obstacle we had to face was the fact our relationship was long distance with him being in northern California in the U.S Coast Guard and me here in Chillicothe Ohio. But we made it and when he got out of the U.S. Coast Guard in July 2007, we drove cross country back to ohio and were married 2 months later. But then just 12 days after we got married another obstacle was thrown at us, I was being admitted to the hospital and having emergency surgery to remove my gallbladder, which at that time we did not know was bad due to undiagnosed Crohn's Disease. And after the surgery I just never recovered and continued to stay sick and then gradually got sicker until I had a nervous break down and was labeled disabled and no longer able to hold down a job due to my ever growing health problems that no one could figure out.
Fast forward to 4 years later on Sept. 7th 2011 just a couple weeks before our 4 year wedding anniversary I was officially diagnosed with Crohn's Disease after finding a good GI specialist.
So our entire marriage has been a fight, every inch we have journeyed on this road in life together has been an epic battle majority of the time. But we have prevailed this far and have no intentions on surrendering now. You HAVE to have unconditional love for your spouse to go through this much, because when the money has all run out, and the sex is no longer there due to health problems, and all you have is each others company that is when you truly find out if the person you are with truly loves you and that they are holding on to their wedding vows "through sickness and in health, til death do us part" that is what marriage is all about.
Now not everything in our marriage has been storm clouds and rain. There are days of beautiful Rainbows and clear blue skies. Like this past weekend, we had the most fantastic Anniversary weekend that we have had in literally 4 years! It all started last Friday night with us going to Grandma and Poppy's for a bon fire. My sister, dad, step mom, Grandma, Poppy and their dogs Maggie and sissy all gathered around Grandma's fire pit and roasted hot dogs and smores! We listened to some great old songs from mine and my sister's childhood and just had a wonderful time and I was NOT sick at all!!!
Then Saturday Jeremy and I went shopping, we stopped and got some fresh sushi for lunch and then we went to Kmart and each got a new pair of tennis shoes, I got 2 new pairs of pants and Jeremy got a new shirt. We came back home for a little while so I could rest due to the fatigue hitting me from all the walking and then we went back out and went to a thrift store where I found some awesome books and a game. then we went to Red Lobster for our BIG Anniversary dinner. I had the Lobster feast meal, and oh my Lord was that the most amazing meal I have EVER had and it did NOT make me sick because sea food is the number 1 food I can eat any time without it hurting me. I ate lobster, crab claws, and 2 types of shrimp! For dessert I had the most awesome carrot cake. Jeremy had the Shrimp feast with shrimp cooked multiple ways and the most tasty fish I have ever tried, and for his dessert he had a choco chip cookie lava cake with a scoop of ice cream and choco sauce over it. This meal was the most expensive meal I have ever had but it was so worth it and our waitress was so great we thanked her for making it so special. Then we came home and literally crashed we both were so tired and then Sunday we literally slept the entire day and just cuddled and watched movies together.
Then today for our anniversary I made bbq ribs in the slow cooker with potato wedges and pumpkin cheese cake for dessert. Jeremy told me those ribs were "DANG GOOD" and coming from a Texan I think I did pretty good for my first time ever making ribs. They literally fell clean off the bones and were just right.
So even though I am sick every day, including today I had hardly any sleep and have been in pain all evening to the point I had to take an emergency med. We were still able to enjoy our anniversary and have a good time.
I love you Jeremy, you are my heart.
God worked a miracle, Jeremy and I have been back together for 6 months and we are doing very well. The biggest hurdle we fight to get over everyday is the Crohn's Disease and now Fibromyalgia. 85% of marriages that go through an Incurable disease/Chronic illness do not make it. The disease destroys the marriage, but I refuse to allow this disease anymore power over my life and especially my marriage. I will fight to the death for my marriage because it is worth fighting for. Jeremy and I have such an amazing love for each other we have survived so much to be together.
The first obstacle we had to face was the fact our relationship was long distance with him being in northern California in the U.S Coast Guard and me here in Chillicothe Ohio. But we made it and when he got out of the U.S. Coast Guard in July 2007, we drove cross country back to ohio and were married 2 months later. But then just 12 days after we got married another obstacle was thrown at us, I was being admitted to the hospital and having emergency surgery to remove my gallbladder, which at that time we did not know was bad due to undiagnosed Crohn's Disease. And after the surgery I just never recovered and continued to stay sick and then gradually got sicker until I had a nervous break down and was labeled disabled and no longer able to hold down a job due to my ever growing health problems that no one could figure out.
Fast forward to 4 years later on Sept. 7th 2011 just a couple weeks before our 4 year wedding anniversary I was officially diagnosed with Crohn's Disease after finding a good GI specialist.
So our entire marriage has been a fight, every inch we have journeyed on this road in life together has been an epic battle majority of the time. But we have prevailed this far and have no intentions on surrendering now. You HAVE to have unconditional love for your spouse to go through this much, because when the money has all run out, and the sex is no longer there due to health problems, and all you have is each others company that is when you truly find out if the person you are with truly loves you and that they are holding on to their wedding vows "through sickness and in health, til death do us part" that is what marriage is all about.
Now not everything in our marriage has been storm clouds and rain. There are days of beautiful Rainbows and clear blue skies. Like this past weekend, we had the most fantastic Anniversary weekend that we have had in literally 4 years! It all started last Friday night with us going to Grandma and Poppy's for a bon fire. My sister, dad, step mom, Grandma, Poppy and their dogs Maggie and sissy all gathered around Grandma's fire pit and roasted hot dogs and smores! We listened to some great old songs from mine and my sister's childhood and just had a wonderful time and I was NOT sick at all!!!
Then Saturday Jeremy and I went shopping, we stopped and got some fresh sushi for lunch and then we went to Kmart and each got a new pair of tennis shoes, I got 2 new pairs of pants and Jeremy got a new shirt. We came back home for a little while so I could rest due to the fatigue hitting me from all the walking and then we went back out and went to a thrift store where I found some awesome books and a game. then we went to Red Lobster for our BIG Anniversary dinner. I had the Lobster feast meal, and oh my Lord was that the most amazing meal I have EVER had and it did NOT make me sick because sea food is the number 1 food I can eat any time without it hurting me. I ate lobster, crab claws, and 2 types of shrimp! For dessert I had the most awesome carrot cake. Jeremy had the Shrimp feast with shrimp cooked multiple ways and the most tasty fish I have ever tried, and for his dessert he had a choco chip cookie lava cake with a scoop of ice cream and choco sauce over it. This meal was the most expensive meal I have ever had but it was so worth it and our waitress was so great we thanked her for making it so special. Then we came home and literally crashed we both were so tired and then Sunday we literally slept the entire day and just cuddled and watched movies together.
Then today for our anniversary I made bbq ribs in the slow cooker with potato wedges and pumpkin cheese cake for dessert. Jeremy told me those ribs were "DANG GOOD" and coming from a Texan I think I did pretty good for my first time ever making ribs. They literally fell clean off the bones and were just right.
So even though I am sick every day, including today I had hardly any sleep and have been in pain all evening to the point I had to take an emergency med. We were still able to enjoy our anniversary and have a good time.
I love you Jeremy, you are my heart.
Sunday, September 20, 2015
Casper's Lullaby Performed By Miranda Caverley
My version of James Horner's song "Casper's Lullaby"
You can download this song for Free at this link
https://www.reverbnation.com/jmcministries/song/24297261-caspers-lullaby-cover
Sunday, September 6, 2015
God Has A Purpose And A Plan For My Life
Something I must share of how God has a plan for our lives and he can
see years into the future of what we will have the opportunity to
accomplish for His Kingdom.
Almost 20 years ago when I was 16 years old I was going through a very hard time in my life. My parents were divorced my mom was trying to raise my sister and I. I had gone through a horrible 2 month relationship with my first boyfriend. I was facing a lot for my 16 year old brain to handle, I was a Christian was active in church and playing drums for a church but life just felt like it was closing in on me. One night i felt i could not go on, and so in the middle of the night i stepped out through the window of my bedroom and onto the roof of our house. I stood on the edge of the roof and looked down thinking about committing suicide. I was about to jump when i heard a loud audible voice from within my spirit yell STOP!!!! I came back to myself a little more and realized what i was about to do and knew i would send my soul to hell if i would jump and kill myself. So I stepped back in through the window and went back to bed never telling anyone what i had done.
For weeks after this event i began praying for God to let me die, I just wanted to go home to heaven I wanted to be without all this turmoil and pain my mind was going through. Then one night God came to me......
I went to bed on a school night and went to sleep. The next thing I knew I was floating above my bed, I was floating into the clouds and out of the atmosphere. And suddenly I was standing a huge gate and there was bright white light all around. The Gate opened and I stepped just inside. I knew immediately i was in heaven, and I thought I was dead and God had heard my cry to be able to come home.
As I stood just inside the gate I look over and I see my Great Grandma Naomi James (MawMaw) who had died when I was 10 years old. I said "Mawmaw!?" and she "Yes Miranda, Hi" and then after she walked past I saw an young man in his teens with blonde hair He looked at me and said "Hi Miranda" I looked at this young man who was about my age and said "Craig?!" He looks at me and says "Yeah!" this young man was my uncle Craig who died when he was 15 years old who I only knew from his school picture that my Grandmother has sitting on a table in her house. Craig walked on by and suddenly I was surrounded by a multitude of people many who's faces i recognized but could not remember their names.
Suddenly, the crowd began to part and I saw a tall man in a white robe walking towards me, his face shown like the sun and I immediately knew it was Jesus. Jesus came to me and said "my child why are you praying this prayer?" And immediately I knew what he meant, the prayer I had been praying for weeks that he would take me home to heaven. "I looked at Jesus and said "I just want to come home, it's too much to handle" Jesus looks at me and says, "But Miranda it's not your time to come home, you have so much to still do so much life that must still be lived. There are people on earth that need to hear the gospel and need help, and there are people there that only YOU can help and you must be there to help them."
I stood there kinda in shock and Jesus wrapped his arms around me and hugged me and it was like I found strength like i had never known come into my spirit. And I looked up at Jesus and said, "Ok I will go back" and immediately a force pulled me out of the gate of heaven and i felt myself falling and then suddenly i felt my soul return to my body and I woke up gasping for air like I had been under water for a long time holding my breath.
I never prayed that prayer again and I lived my life as "every day i am alive is because there is someone i still haven't met yet and shared my testimony and about Jesus"
Yesterday I had another God moment that confirmed that dream. Nearly 20 years later and now being 34 years old I had a person tell me "Miranda you are the only person i know who could help me, you were the only person i felt i could talk to you because i knew you had gone through this same certain situation and you survived it."
And I immediately thought of the words Jesus spoke to me when i was 16 years old "It's not your time, there are people on earth that only you can help and you need to be there for them"
After this person talked to me about what they were going through and how they felt God had placed me in their life so many years ago because He knew what the future held and knew that one day they would need a friend who could help them through. I told this person about my vision of Heaven when i was 16 years old and I told this person "DON'T YOU GIVE UP, BECAUSE I'M NOT GIVING UP ON YOU!!! Don't you ever forget about what Jesus told me all those years ago, because He revealed himself to me and told me what he did is the reason I didn't commit suicide. YOU ARE THE REASON I DID NOT END MY LIFE. Because I believed what Jesus said and believed He had a purpose for my life and you telling me this confirms that there are truly people on this earth that only I can help and I must be here to share the love of Jesus and help show them the way until it is my time to come home to heaven.
God knows the plans he has for us
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
God sees the full length of the road I am traveling on in my life and though I may be sick, I may not be able to do as much ministry work out in the public as I use to. But I am still here to do His will and to help those he sends my way. We may not understand why we go through so much suffering on this earth but I know NOW that my suffering has been for the Glory of God and to bring hope to those who are or have gone through the same things i have. Because God brought me through He will bring You through too.
When people ask me is Jesus real and is heaven real I can for certain tell them "Yes" and when they ask "how do you know" I can answer "because I have seen Jesus and I have seen a glimpse of heaven" and I know HE is real.
Almost 20 years ago when I was 16 years old I was going through a very hard time in my life. My parents were divorced my mom was trying to raise my sister and I. I had gone through a horrible 2 month relationship with my first boyfriend. I was facing a lot for my 16 year old brain to handle, I was a Christian was active in church and playing drums for a church but life just felt like it was closing in on me. One night i felt i could not go on, and so in the middle of the night i stepped out through the window of my bedroom and onto the roof of our house. I stood on the edge of the roof and looked down thinking about committing suicide. I was about to jump when i heard a loud audible voice from within my spirit yell STOP!!!! I came back to myself a little more and realized what i was about to do and knew i would send my soul to hell if i would jump and kill myself. So I stepped back in through the window and went back to bed never telling anyone what i had done.
For weeks after this event i began praying for God to let me die, I just wanted to go home to heaven I wanted to be without all this turmoil and pain my mind was going through. Then one night God came to me......
I went to bed on a school night and went to sleep. The next thing I knew I was floating above my bed, I was floating into the clouds and out of the atmosphere. And suddenly I was standing a huge gate and there was bright white light all around. The Gate opened and I stepped just inside. I knew immediately i was in heaven, and I thought I was dead and God had heard my cry to be able to come home.
As I stood just inside the gate I look over and I see my Great Grandma Naomi James (MawMaw) who had died when I was 10 years old. I said "Mawmaw!?" and she "Yes Miranda, Hi" and then after she walked past I saw an young man in his teens with blonde hair He looked at me and said "Hi Miranda" I looked at this young man who was about my age and said "Craig?!" He looks at me and says "Yeah!" this young man was my uncle Craig who died when he was 15 years old who I only knew from his school picture that my Grandmother has sitting on a table in her house. Craig walked on by and suddenly I was surrounded by a multitude of people many who's faces i recognized but could not remember their names.
Suddenly, the crowd began to part and I saw a tall man in a white robe walking towards me, his face shown like the sun and I immediately knew it was Jesus. Jesus came to me and said "my child why are you praying this prayer?" And immediately I knew what he meant, the prayer I had been praying for weeks that he would take me home to heaven. "I looked at Jesus and said "I just want to come home, it's too much to handle" Jesus looks at me and says, "But Miranda it's not your time to come home, you have so much to still do so much life that must still be lived. There are people on earth that need to hear the gospel and need help, and there are people there that only YOU can help and you must be there to help them."
I stood there kinda in shock and Jesus wrapped his arms around me and hugged me and it was like I found strength like i had never known come into my spirit. And I looked up at Jesus and said, "Ok I will go back" and immediately a force pulled me out of the gate of heaven and i felt myself falling and then suddenly i felt my soul return to my body and I woke up gasping for air like I had been under water for a long time holding my breath.
I never prayed that prayer again and I lived my life as "every day i am alive is because there is someone i still haven't met yet and shared my testimony and about Jesus"
Yesterday I had another God moment that confirmed that dream. Nearly 20 years later and now being 34 years old I had a person tell me "Miranda you are the only person i know who could help me, you were the only person i felt i could talk to you because i knew you had gone through this same certain situation and you survived it."
And I immediately thought of the words Jesus spoke to me when i was 16 years old "It's not your time, there are people on earth that only you can help and you need to be there for them"
After this person talked to me about what they were going through and how they felt God had placed me in their life so many years ago because He knew what the future held and knew that one day they would need a friend who could help them through. I told this person about my vision of Heaven when i was 16 years old and I told this person "DON'T YOU GIVE UP, BECAUSE I'M NOT GIVING UP ON YOU!!! Don't you ever forget about what Jesus told me all those years ago, because He revealed himself to me and told me what he did is the reason I didn't commit suicide. YOU ARE THE REASON I DID NOT END MY LIFE. Because I believed what Jesus said and believed He had a purpose for my life and you telling me this confirms that there are truly people on this earth that only I can help and I must be here to share the love of Jesus and help show them the way until it is my time to come home to heaven.
God knows the plans he has for us
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
God sees the full length of the road I am traveling on in my life and though I may be sick, I may not be able to do as much ministry work out in the public as I use to. But I am still here to do His will and to help those he sends my way. We may not understand why we go through so much suffering on this earth but I know NOW that my suffering has been for the Glory of God and to bring hope to those who are or have gone through the same things i have. Because God brought me through He will bring You through too.
When people ask me is Jesus real and is heaven real I can for certain tell them "Yes" and when they ask "how do you know" I can answer "because I have seen Jesus and I have seen a glimpse of heaven" and I know HE is real.
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