Tuesday, February 4, 2020
The Wayfaring Stranger Performed By Miranda Caverley
This song/video is dedicated to my grandpa "Poppy" Rex Fannin who passed
away on January 24, 2020. This was one of my Poppy's favorite songs I
have sung, and knowing we only had a few weeks left with him, I recorded
this song.
But sadly my Poppy went downhill faster than we expected
and passed away before he could listen to this song.
The Wayfaring Stranger was the last song I recorded before his death and
I pray God lets him hear this song. My Poppy was a very talented
musician who could play many different instruments and could also sing.
He passed that gift on to me. My Poppy was also a minister, he
preached the gospel and gave his life to helping others and sharing the
love of Jesus for over 50 years before his health became too bad for him
to continue preaching and singing and playing music.
I pray that this song blesses all who hear it and that the video
inspires you because we all are that "wayfaring stranger" and I pray
that if you do not know Jesus as your personal Savior that you will come
to repentance of your sins and start a relationship with Jesus Christ,
get into a gospel believing and preaching church, and cling to Jesus and
his nail scarred hands and He will walk with you through this world to
the very end.
You can download this song for FREE at our music site
https://www.reverbnation.com/jmcministries/song/31520743-wayfairing-stranger
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JMC vlog episode 56 We moved to columbus ohio
https://youtu.be/UXImWvUl_Qw
Video update on Jeremy and I's move to Columbus Ohio on march 26, 2018
Thursday, August 24, 2017
Summer is almost over
This week children went back to school. There was an amazing solar eclipse on monday that made most everyone in the USA stop for a moment and stand in awe of what the heavens can do and God's amazing creation.
Aug. 4th jeremy turned 37. Aug. 22nd marked one month until our 10 year wedding anniversary and also the first day of fall.
I have not been able to go anywhere all summer except to my patio to enjoy the cool days we have had like today. Or to a store locally for a short ride and one date to a restaurant. Although the anemia is getting under control, there just anything to help the crohns disease and i have been swamped since the end of june with constant bad days, vomiting, fevers, near fainting spells (i nearly fell down our stairs earlier this month) fatigue and of course the never ending pain.
But everyday i keep fighting like i always do. I still get up and do what my body will let me. Keeping up on house cleaning and cooking meals daily takes every ounce of energy i have so it is no surprise i have no energy to go out for a date or a walk. But at least i have a clean house and thats ok with me.
I have felt pretty introverted this summer too. Which is not me, i haven't felt like talking to anyone but 3 people all summer on a regular basis. i have felt so bad i don't feel like talking. If you have ever been really really sick you know that you just don't feel like chatting. You just want to read or watch a movie or sleep until you are better.
We have had friends call or write asking if we can come visit or take a short road trip to see them. But jeremy has to explain that although we have the money and even the days off from his job to do these things, i am just too sick to travel even 30 minutes most days away from the house.
So to keep myself busy i have read some amazing books....here are just a few of the most recent
Blitz cat
Ready Player One
The zoo keepers wife
The dorothy must die book series which i have read 6 of the 7 books so far
Also continuing to crochet hats scarves and such for the homeless.....i hand those things out the first week of november and i have 2 big trash bags stuffed full already.
Playing music and hopefully will have my 70 yr old studio piano completely restored in another week or 2 so i can really enjoy playing it and making some new music videos.
Maybe when fall gets here in less than a month maybe i will have a few more good days and can take a day trip to columbus or some place exciting.
Wednesday, July 12, 2017
Long over due update
I haven't made an update since nearly the beginning of the year. And really it was because things had been going so bad.
I finally found it seems a GI doctor that will not abuse me and will listen to me and treat me like I'm a human being for once. Dr. Emlich is very upset with how I have been treated really my entire life since getting crohns disease and the abuse and neglect I have suffered over the past 10 years of my life. We found out from just simple blood tests that OSU could have easily done but refused to and also decided to tell me I was crazy. That I have been anemic/iron deficient for over a year at least and was on the verge of needing a blood transfusion. And also that I have had an infection in my stomach and intestines for over a year that was easily cured with a couple rounds of antibiotics.
Dr. Emlich agrees that I am at the end of what medicine can do for me since I am literally allergic to everything that is on the market for Crohns and basically we monitor me and treat what symptoms we can until I get bad enough for surgery in the coming years.
Dr. Emlich also said that looking at my inflammatory levels he thinks that I would never have been put on the chemo therapy treatments in the first place because I was NOT bad enough for that treatment yet. Yes I have moderate to severe crohns disease, but.....I also have severe irritable bowel disease as well and that is what is causing a lot of my problems not just the crohns. Which I knew as well.
So since the beginning of May I have been on Iron supplements to help my anemia which I can feel a huge difference and all my symptoms except the fatigue have gone away. I go in a couple days to have my level checked again to see if I am back into the normal range for iron level.
I have been able to do more than I have in a year and although I am sick still every day. I can handle being this sick because this is my normal.
Also on June 20, 2017 Jeremy and I decided to add a new member to our family. Miss Emily Tailor Caverley came into our lives. she is our tuxedo kitten that came from cousin jerri's home. and on july 10th she turned 3 months old she is such a joy and I am so happy I have her.
I also turned 36 yrs old on may 28th and I am happy to be able to get to grow another year older. Because sadly today I learned of another young crohns warrior who lost her battle with this disease. Every year God gives me is truly a blessing.
That is about all I have for now. Hopefully I will not wait so long to write another update.
I finally found it seems a GI doctor that will not abuse me and will listen to me and treat me like I'm a human being for once. Dr. Emlich is very upset with how I have been treated really my entire life since getting crohns disease and the abuse and neglect I have suffered over the past 10 years of my life. We found out from just simple blood tests that OSU could have easily done but refused to and also decided to tell me I was crazy. That I have been anemic/iron deficient for over a year at least and was on the verge of needing a blood transfusion. And also that I have had an infection in my stomach and intestines for over a year that was easily cured with a couple rounds of antibiotics.
Dr. Emlich agrees that I am at the end of what medicine can do for me since I am literally allergic to everything that is on the market for Crohns and basically we monitor me and treat what symptoms we can until I get bad enough for surgery in the coming years.
Dr. Emlich also said that looking at my inflammatory levels he thinks that I would never have been put on the chemo therapy treatments in the first place because I was NOT bad enough for that treatment yet. Yes I have moderate to severe crohns disease, but.....I also have severe irritable bowel disease as well and that is what is causing a lot of my problems not just the crohns. Which I knew as well.
So since the beginning of May I have been on Iron supplements to help my anemia which I can feel a huge difference and all my symptoms except the fatigue have gone away. I go in a couple days to have my level checked again to see if I am back into the normal range for iron level.
I have been able to do more than I have in a year and although I am sick still every day. I can handle being this sick because this is my normal.
Also on June 20, 2017 Jeremy and I decided to add a new member to our family. Miss Emily Tailor Caverley came into our lives. she is our tuxedo kitten that came from cousin jerri's home. and on july 10th she turned 3 months old she is such a joy and I am so happy I have her.
I also turned 36 yrs old on may 28th and I am happy to be able to get to grow another year older. Because sadly today I learned of another young crohns warrior who lost her battle with this disease. Every year God gives me is truly a blessing.
That is about all I have for now. Hopefully I will not wait so long to write another update.
Wednesday, March 22, 2017
Two Of Us performed by Miranda Caverley
My Version of the Song "Two Of Us" by Joe Hisaishi
Dedicated to my husband Jeremy
Download this song for free at
http://www.reverbnation.com/open_graph/song/24390175
The Ludlows Performed by Miranda Caverley
My version of James Horner's song the ludlows from the movie Legends of the Fall
This song was played at my wedding and my husband Jeremy thought it fitting to put some pics of our wedding day in the video. Hope you enjoy it.
didn't i walk on the water performed by Miranda Caverley
My version of the gospel song "Didn't I Walk On The Water"
FREE download of this song
https://www.reverbnation.com/jmcministries/song/27595848-didnt-i-walk-on-water-cover
Sunday, February 19, 2017
I Have Some Bad News I Have To Tell You
I have not made this post until today because I felt I needed to call all my close friends near and far away personally and tell them the latest news I received from my primary care doctor.
I have been on the phone for nearly 2 weeks every day and multiple times a day sharing this news because i didn't feel it was right to just post a cold informal update about my health that is so serious. I felt I owed it to all who have loved me and been in my life over the years watching as i have fought so hard against crohn's disease.
So now the time has come to tell you all and publicly share this, and I am sorry if this causes any of you pain.
On Monday February 6, 2017, My primary care doctor gave me very bad news. He told grandma, Jeremy and I the hard truth of where I am in my fight against crohn's disease.
he said, "my advice is to find a local GI doctor who can monitor Miranda, because at this point there really is nothing else any doctor can do. Miranda is allergice to every treatment out there for crohn's and her only option left is surgery. But, she is not bad enough for surgery. And the Dr.'s will not do a bowel resection until Miranda is in an emergency situation. The first reason is because with crohn's when you remove the place the immune system is attacking in the bowel, the immune system just goes and attacks another part of the bowel and so once they start cutting they really never stop. The second reason is because Crohn's is an auto immune disease which causes miranda's immune system to be constantly compromised and she may not heal properly from the surgery. that is why they wait until patients are in a life and death situation many times.
here is what is going to happen, Miranda will continue to get sicker, and sicker until her bowel becomes permanently blocked from the inflammation and scar tissue building up in her bowels. When that happens and she starts having symptoms of a complete bowel blockage, (he looks at grandma and Jeremy at this point) you must get her to the emergency room as fast as you can before her bowel ruptures or perforates and she dies.
The E.R. docs will run xrays or ct-scans and see she has a permanent blockage and then will take her into emergency surgery and try and save her life."
We were in the my doctor's office for an hour and a half. And he is continuing to try medications to just help my pain and make me as comfortable as he can until I get bad enough for the surgery.
But I am only going to get sicker, there is no better now, and the hope that God allows the surgery to save my life when the time comes.
We know not when this time is coming but it will come and it will be hard and I will have a long road of recovery if I do survive the surgery.
If for some reason God chooses to take me home and healing me that way instead of healing me through the surgery and letting me live on. I am ok with it and at total peace about the whole situation.
But I truly believe that through my suffering God is going to do something amazing with me. I think of how Jesus suffered and died and through his suffering he saved the whole world. Certainly then, God can use my suffering to make a difference no matter who big or small to impact this world.
I am not going to just lie down and die from this bad news. NO! I am going to LIVE and I am going to LIVE and cherish every moment God gives me.
I came close to death 2 times in a 6 month span last year from anaphalaxis reaction to the chemo meds I was on to try and fight the crohn's. I suffered through horrible pain and agony from the reaction. But I LIVED and I will LIVE through this bad news and whatever the future may hold.
The Lord isn't going to take me home until HE is ready for me to come home and I have accomplished my purpose on this earth. So I'm not planning on going anywhere just yet. But whenever that day does come, I am ready to go home.
I have been on the phone for nearly 2 weeks every day and multiple times a day sharing this news because i didn't feel it was right to just post a cold informal update about my health that is so serious. I felt I owed it to all who have loved me and been in my life over the years watching as i have fought so hard against crohn's disease.
So now the time has come to tell you all and publicly share this, and I am sorry if this causes any of you pain.
On Monday February 6, 2017, My primary care doctor gave me very bad news. He told grandma, Jeremy and I the hard truth of where I am in my fight against crohn's disease.
he said, "my advice is to find a local GI doctor who can monitor Miranda, because at this point there really is nothing else any doctor can do. Miranda is allergice to every treatment out there for crohn's and her only option left is surgery. But, she is not bad enough for surgery. And the Dr.'s will not do a bowel resection until Miranda is in an emergency situation. The first reason is because with crohn's when you remove the place the immune system is attacking in the bowel, the immune system just goes and attacks another part of the bowel and so once they start cutting they really never stop. The second reason is because Crohn's is an auto immune disease which causes miranda's immune system to be constantly compromised and she may not heal properly from the surgery. that is why they wait until patients are in a life and death situation many times.
here is what is going to happen, Miranda will continue to get sicker, and sicker until her bowel becomes permanently blocked from the inflammation and scar tissue building up in her bowels. When that happens and she starts having symptoms of a complete bowel blockage, (he looks at grandma and Jeremy at this point) you must get her to the emergency room as fast as you can before her bowel ruptures or perforates and she dies.
The E.R. docs will run xrays or ct-scans and see she has a permanent blockage and then will take her into emergency surgery and try and save her life."
We were in the my doctor's office for an hour and a half. And he is continuing to try medications to just help my pain and make me as comfortable as he can until I get bad enough for the surgery.
But I am only going to get sicker, there is no better now, and the hope that God allows the surgery to save my life when the time comes.
We know not when this time is coming but it will come and it will be hard and I will have a long road of recovery if I do survive the surgery.
If for some reason God chooses to take me home and healing me that way instead of healing me through the surgery and letting me live on. I am ok with it and at total peace about the whole situation.
But I truly believe that through my suffering God is going to do something amazing with me. I think of how Jesus suffered and died and through his suffering he saved the whole world. Certainly then, God can use my suffering to make a difference no matter who big or small to impact this world.
I am not going to just lie down and die from this bad news. NO! I am going to LIVE and I am going to LIVE and cherish every moment God gives me.
I came close to death 2 times in a 6 month span last year from anaphalaxis reaction to the chemo meds I was on to try and fight the crohn's. I suffered through horrible pain and agony from the reaction. But I LIVED and I will LIVE through this bad news and whatever the future may hold.
The Lord isn't going to take me home until HE is ready for me to come home and I have accomplished my purpose on this earth. So I'm not planning on going anywhere just yet. But whenever that day does come, I am ready to go home.
Tuesday, November 29, 2016
what child is this/greensleeves performed by miranda caverley
My rendition of What Child Is This/Greensleeves
Download song for FREE at
https://www.reverbnation.com/jmcministries/song/27062763-what-child-is-thisgreensleeves
JMC Vlog Episode 51: Some things are just too hard to talk about
Update on fight against Crohns disease. Going to a new GI doctor and all I have gone through since my last vlog 7 months ago.
Monday, August 29, 2016
Song From A Secret Garden Performed By Miranda Caverley
My Version of Secret Garden's Song "Song From A Secret Garden"
I dedicate This song to my sister Autumn
Surviving My 2nd Anaphalixis Reaction To Crohn's Meds In 6 Months
The last time i made a post/video I was getting ready to start on Entyvio, because I had had a horrible reaction to Remicade. Well, after having my 4th Entyvio infusion on July 16, 2016 I started having a SEVERE allergic reaction to it. My whole body started swelling up with fluid, and i was in excruciating pain through out my whole body.
I had to be put on an even higher doses of lasix medications than I was on before while going through the reaction to Remicade. I have severe vertigo and have horrible dizzy spells. It's been just over a month since I had the reaction and my reactions symptoms sadly are not really any better. The only symptom that is, is the crushing pain feeling through out my whole body, that has gotten a lot better. The doctors say I literally have to wait for the medication to get out of my system before I will see any improvements in my symptoms. Sadly this can take months, so for now I sit in my house next to my bathroom going to the bathroom about 10 times a day peeing the fluid off my body and also going another 10 times a day because of the Crohn's disease causing diarrhea.
My GI doctor ran blood work and it shows that the Crohn's disease is NOT in remission even though they tried to keep telling me it was after my ct scan results from June came back inconclusive. But I knew better and I know my body. But sadly I am literally at the end of medications the doctor can try to stop this disease from continuing to eat me alive, and surgery looks to be in my future sooner than later.
In the face of all this, my mental health has taken a HUGE hit and I am just not the Miranda everyone knows right now. But every morning I get up and keep trying and keep fighting.
I've even kept up my music, I just recorded a new song I have been working on for months called "Song From A Secret Garden" it is written by the group Secret Garden
It is a beautiful contemporary classical piece and i love playing it, it is so soothing to me.
If you would like to listen to the song and download it for free click on the link below
https://www.reverbnation.com/jmcministries/song/26499036-song-from-secret-garden-cover
With everything going on with me, it has really taken a toll on my husband. I mean I came close to death 2 times in 6 months due to reactions to the meds. I have not been able to go anywhere outside of the house other than to go to doctors appointments in a year!!! A year!!! I have lost an entire YEAR OF MY LIFE!!!!
My husband was laid off from his job 2 months ago because the the contract ended, and he is currently on unemployment looking for work and trying to take care of me all at the same time. the stress is so bad, it has caused my husband to get high blood pressure and he has had to be put on blood pressure medication. His doctor and nurses do believe that his problem is situational and more than likely will be fixed when the stress go down. My husband is healthy and now my disease is causing him to have health problems. The guilt is sometimes unbearable, and I feel at times I am ruining the lives of everyone around me. But in reality it is the disease and I don't have control over what happens to me when it comes to Crohn's.
We are in survival mode, and most anything that has nothing to do with out surviving this season in our lives we just do NOT care about. I have literally said "the world could be burning and I would light a match and throw it on to the fire" I hate being like this but if I don't think this way I'm mentally going to lose it more than I already have.
That's all I can bring myself to write for now. I hope to write again soon or do a video log.
I had to be put on an even higher doses of lasix medications than I was on before while going through the reaction to Remicade. I have severe vertigo and have horrible dizzy spells. It's been just over a month since I had the reaction and my reactions symptoms sadly are not really any better. The only symptom that is, is the crushing pain feeling through out my whole body, that has gotten a lot better. The doctors say I literally have to wait for the medication to get out of my system before I will see any improvements in my symptoms. Sadly this can take months, so for now I sit in my house next to my bathroom going to the bathroom about 10 times a day peeing the fluid off my body and also going another 10 times a day because of the Crohn's disease causing diarrhea.
My GI doctor ran blood work and it shows that the Crohn's disease is NOT in remission even though they tried to keep telling me it was after my ct scan results from June came back inconclusive. But I knew better and I know my body. But sadly I am literally at the end of medications the doctor can try to stop this disease from continuing to eat me alive, and surgery looks to be in my future sooner than later.
In the face of all this, my mental health has taken a HUGE hit and I am just not the Miranda everyone knows right now. But every morning I get up and keep trying and keep fighting.
I've even kept up my music, I just recorded a new song I have been working on for months called "Song From A Secret Garden" it is written by the group Secret Garden
It is a beautiful contemporary classical piece and i love playing it, it is so soothing to me.
If you would like to listen to the song and download it for free click on the link below
https://www.reverbnation.com/jmcministries/song/26499036-song-from-secret-garden-cover
With everything going on with me, it has really taken a toll on my husband. I mean I came close to death 2 times in 6 months due to reactions to the meds. I have not been able to go anywhere outside of the house other than to go to doctors appointments in a year!!! A year!!! I have lost an entire YEAR OF MY LIFE!!!!
My husband was laid off from his job 2 months ago because the the contract ended, and he is currently on unemployment looking for work and trying to take care of me all at the same time. the stress is so bad, it has caused my husband to get high blood pressure and he has had to be put on blood pressure medication. His doctor and nurses do believe that his problem is situational and more than likely will be fixed when the stress go down. My husband is healthy and now my disease is causing him to have health problems. The guilt is sometimes unbearable, and I feel at times I am ruining the lives of everyone around me. But in reality it is the disease and I don't have control over what happens to me when it comes to Crohn's.
We are in survival mode, and most anything that has nothing to do with out surviving this season in our lives we just do NOT care about. I have literally said "the world could be burning and I would light a match and throw it on to the fire" I hate being like this but if I don't think this way I'm mentally going to lose it more than I already have.
That's all I can bring myself to write for now. I hope to write again soon or do a video log.
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